Thankful To Be a Mom | Mother’s Day Reflection

Motherhood has not always come easy for me. When my husband and I decided to have children I was excited. I had tons of lofty expectations (as I think most new mothers do). I knew I was going to work hard and breastfeed. Sleep train and adopt a hobby in order to fill my non-working time/ baby nap time. I was looking forward to cooking meals, organizing my home and playing with my child. Like all the cliche Mom-isms – It wasn’t what I expected; you cannot plan everything for your children. It has been the most difficult and fulfilling part of my life. That last one is really so true that it is hard to put into words.

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Growing As A Mother – Starting my journey aa a mother was super difficult. We had feeding issues, sleeping troubles, weight problems, a travel husband and became pregnant right away. In short, I felt totally inept at being a mother. I cried, screamed, and threw temper tantrums. I could not handle the stress and change in identity. With the second child being born, I was totally in survival mode. Things began to spiral and I felt as though I was in a total fog – alone and failing.

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However, as the days and months passed life became easier. No, I wasn’t super successful in breastfeeding or getting my children to sleep. But I slowly got my act together. I slowly began to keep up with the laundry, house cleaning and meal prep. As i began incorporating exercise for my children and myself our worlds just kept improving. I fail – a lot. Probably more than I am successful, but the point is I have learned. I have improved. I have grown into becoming a mother.

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Reality of Reflections – One of the most amazing things I have seen as a mother is how I am reflected within my children. Not only do I see my physical attributes but I also seem my mannerisms, personality traits, and of course ALL the flaws. Anyone who is close to me knows I struggle with processing my anger and anxiety. It is a sobering reminder of this major flaw when I see my children also struggle in the same ways. It is frustrating, scary, and really unfair to deal with – I wish there was a way to erase this struggle from my children. But alas, that really isn’t a possibility for us mothers.

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But I LOVE seeing how driven, fierce and compassionate my girls can be. Sometimes they are stronger than I have ever been. They are definitely nicer and care more for people than I am capable. They are artistic, funny, and so incredibly special to me. They have shown me the importance of forgiveness, kindness, how to love and sleep. I continue to be a better person the more I spend time with them. As much as I teach them about life, they are teaching me so much more. I am thankful everyday for the opportunity to be a mother.

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A Mother’s Wish – As every mother does, I hope my children have a better life than I do. I hope that they have less broken hearts. Less anxiety and anger in their lives. More life experiences, more compassion, and more love. I hope they continue to try new things without fear of rejection. I hope they continue to pursue their passions. I look forward to helping them work through life obstacles. Showing them love when they have broken hearts and helping them be resilient. Helping them process their anger and achieve their goals. Watching them grow up is such an amazing experience and I am thankful to have the opportunity to help them.

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Motherhood has improved my life in so many ways and most importantly given it meaning when I felt that I had none. They are the reason I get out of bed, continue to drive for improvements, and look towards a better life. I am thankful that my children have been able to show me how to slow down, hush my anger, and be present. I look forward to the many more life lessons that they will show me. As much as motherhood has been so difficult and gut-wrenching – it has been the most fulfilling experience in my life and I can’t wait to see what happens next.

Lauren Cop is a part-time SAHM (Stay At Home Mom) of Irish Twins and Senior writer/editor ciao_laurencop_sig-01of the Olive Shoe Blog. Currently Lauren and her family live in Tallahassee, FL where she teaches at a local pre-school. A Clemson fanatic, alumni and general sports enthusiast. She loves reading, gardening, food, and traveling. Follow her Twitter, Instagram, and Pinterest.

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